tough decisions?!?!?!

I wonder, what would have happened to us if would be was non-existent in the English vocabulary. Next week, this time I would be in the train. Last to last Saturday, I was elated that I would be in the train towards home the following week, same time ……… And next Sunday, I would be wondering when I would board that train next, to restination - home again………………………… It happens to me all the time… the same thought flow, every time I book tickets for home………Surely I wouldn’t be that unique a creation to have such isolated thoughts! Every body’s mind except for those few who have forgotten all worry about tomorrow will be in a state of constant motion. The laws of Physics suit us so well. It looks like an arduous task to stay in the present …;) We are always dreaming………either in the nights (the best time when there isn’t any load on our minds)………or during the day (the worst time when the saw is right above our heads in various forms and voices) ……about Tomorrow, of course. The car I would buy or the house I would construct or if not anything else there is the stock market to worry about now – Shares - will the value go up will I be able to sell them?!! Should I buy those??!!! At office, Oh! The deadline is tomorrow..…I have to work ………………… We all seem to be in a constant state of worry (in motion as usual according to the law) ……no wonder myriads of us have or are prospective victims of high blood pressure, heart attack and all such depressive ailments. STD IX is when the worry period starts – Stage -1……… the engineering aspirants look up to IIT, I would be there for my Btech. The brilliants postal course for the JEE begins in 9th I believe. Std IX is not all that good either other subject wise too…History time is Civilization time and then one has no other source but to mug the text…all about Indus, Mesopotamia, the Romans the Greeks the British…. Mathematics is trigonometry time I guess, if I hadn’t learnt sines and cosines in an earlier class, you guys can fill in the rest. And to top it all, our seniors would have warned us, better enjoy yourself now, this is the last tension free year………so in comes the pressure to enjoy amidst all other would be Anxieties… My brother’s Physics tuition Sir would tell their STD XII batch “It would be a tough time for you all now… tuitions, entrance coaching, peer pressure, parental pressure, school pressure, your own pressure to do well…… still there is a consolation. (ah!!! the class thought at least one person understands our predicament J) ….all over India there are about 3 lakh students like you in the same mental state. You guys have company…” When in 9th it would be over after the STD X board exams, when in 10th it is the class XII board that matters…by the time one climbs till 12th suddenly the entrance exam and then one’s future would be made….what about after the great entry into the college of our dreams the final year exams and we would be somebody with a degree as a tail ….. Would bes continue. …till we get engaged and there is a would be spouse… I wonder when I would be in the company of present tense and its partners. …………Unborn Tomorrow………… ……………Dead Yesterday………… ………………Why fret………………… …… If today be sweet! ……… (The Persian Poet Omar Khayyam) I wonder when I would be would be-free…free from the use of these gerunds.